restlessness

i actually noticed, or at least it seemed so, that the day was longer (more daylight) today than it was yesterday. i felt a shift in energy, like i got a boost in my trajectory. in some ways it's like i'm coming out of hibernation, though i'm not sure that i can explain why.

my familiar restlessness has been back in full force recently. restlessness, loneliness, pensiveness.

"My heart is restless, O God, until it rests in Thee." could it be possible that my soul was made to rest in God, which is exactly why i am restless? i will not rest until i rest in God, which sort of sounds like "i will not rest until i rest," which is also true. i am restless until i am not. now i am rambling. i thought i had something worthwhile to write until now--what was it?